An Autobiography, (1959), pp. 26-28
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01. Preparation for England |
| I passed the matriculation examination in 1887.
It then used to be held at two centres, Ahmedabad and Bombay. The
general poverty of the country naturally led Kathiawad students to
prefer the nearer and the cheaper centre. The poverty of my family
likewise dictated to me the same choice. This was my first journey
from Rajkot to Ahmedabad and that too without a companion. My elders
wanted me to pursue my studies at college after the matriculation.
There was a college in Bhavnagar as well as in Bombay, and as the
former was cheaper, I decided to go there and join the Samaldas College.
I went, but found myself entirely at sea. Everything was difficult.
I could not follow, let alone taking interest in, the professors'
lectures. It was no fault of theirs. The professors in that college
were regarded as first-rate. But I was so raw. At the end of the first
term, I returned home. We had in Mavji Dave, who was a shrewd and
learned Brahman, an old friend and adviser of the family. He had kept
up his connection with the family even after my father's death. He
happened to visit us during my vacation. In conversation with my mother
and elder brother, he inquired about my studies. Learning that I was
at Samaldas College, he said: 'The times are changed. And none of
you can expect to succeed to your father's gadi without having had
a proper education. Now as this boy is still pursuing his studies,
you should all look to him to keep the gadi. It will take him four
or five years to get his B.A. degree, which will at best qualify him
for a sixty rupees' post, not for a Diwanship. If like my son he went
in for law, it would take him still longer, by which time there would
be a host of lawyers aspiring for a Diwan's post. I would far rather
that you sent him to England. My son Kevalram says it is very easy
to become a barrister. In three years' time he will return. Also expenses
will not exceed four to five thousand rupees. Think of that barrister
who has just come back from England. How stylishly he lives! He could
get the Diwanship for the asking. I would strongly advise you to send
Mohandas to England this very year. Kevalram has numerous friends
in England. He will give notes of introduction to them, and Mohandas
will have an easy time of it there.' Joshiji-that is how we used to
call old Mavji Dave-turned to me with complete assurance, and asked:
'Would you not rather go to England than study here?' Nothing could
have been more welcome to me. I was fighting shy of my difficult studies.
So I jumped at the proposal and said that the sooner I was sent the
better. It was no easy business to pass examinations quickly. Could
I not be sent to qualify for the medical profession? My brother interrupted
me: 'Father never liked it. He had you in mind when he said that we
Vaishnavas should have nothing to do with dissection of dead bodies.
Father intended you for the bar.' Joshiji chimed in: 'I am not opposed
to the medical profession as was Gandhiji. Our Shastras are not against
it. But a medical degree will not make a Diwan of you, and I want
you to be Diwan, or if possible something better. Only in that way
could you take under your protecting care your large family. The times
are fast changing and getting harder every day. It is the wisest thing
therefore to become a barrister. Turning to my mother he said: 'Now,
I must leave. Pray ponder over what I have said. When I come here
next I shall expect to hear of preparations for England. Be sure to
let me know if I can assist in any way.' Joshiji went away, and I
began building castles in the air. My elder brother was greatly exercised
in his mind. How was he to find the wherewithal to send me? And was
it proper to trust a young man like me to go abroad alone? My mother
was sorely perplexed. She did not like the idea of parting with me.
This is how she tried to put me off: 'Uncle,' she said, 'is now the
eldest member of the family. He should first be consulted. If he consents
we will consider the matter.' My brother had another idea. He said
to me: 'We have a certain claim on the Porbandar State. Mr. Lely is
the Administrator. He thinks highly of our family and uncle is in
his good books. It is just possible that he might recommend you for
some State help for your education in England.' I liked all this and
got ready to start off for Porbandar. There was no railway in those
days. It was a five days' bullock-cart journey. I have already said
that I was a coward. But at that moment my cowardice vanished before
the desire to go to England, which completely possessed me. I hired
a bullock-cart as far as Dhoraji, and from Dhoraji I took a camel
in order to get to Porbandar a day quicker. This was my first camel
ride. I arrived at last, did obeisance to my uncle, and told him everything.
He thought it over and said: 'I am not sure whether it is possible
for one to stay in England without prejudice to one's own religion.
From all I have heard, I have my doubts. When I meet these big barristers,
I see no difference between their life and that of Europeans. They
know no scruples regarding food. Cigars are never out of their mouths.
They dress as shamelessly as Englishmen. All that would not be in
keeping with our family tradition. I am shortly going on a pilgrimage
and have not many years to live. At the threshold of death, how dare
I give you permission to go to England, to cross the seas? But I will
not stand in your way. It is your mother's permission which really
matters. If she permits you, then godspeed! Tell her I will not interfere.
You will go with my blessings.' 'I could expect nothing more from
you,' said I. 'I shall now try to win mother over. But would you not
recommend me to Mr. Lely?' 'How can I do that?' said he. 'But he is
a good man. You ask for an appointment telling him how you are connected.
He will certainly give you one and may even help you.' I cannot say
why my uncle did not give me a note of recommendation. I have a faint
idea that he hesitated to co-operate directly in my going to England,
which was, in his opinion, an irreligious act. I wrote to Mr. Lely,
who asked me to see him at his residence. He saw me as he was ascending
the staircase; and saying curtly, 'Pass your B.A. first and then see
me. No help can be given you now,' he hurried upstairs. I had made
elaborate preparations to meet him. I had carefully learnt up a few
sentences and had bowed low and saluted him with both hands. But all
to no purpose! I thought of my wife's ornaments. I thought of my elder
brother, in whom I had the utmost faith. He was generous to a fault,
and he loved me as his son. I returned to Rajkot from Porbandar and
reported all that had happened. I consulted Joshiji, who of course
advised even incurring a debt if necessary. I suggested the disposal
of my wife's ornaments, which could fetch about two to three thousand
rupees. My brother promised to find the money somehow. My mother,
however, was still unwilling. She had begun making minute inquiries.
Someone had told her that young men got lost in England. Someone else
had said that they took to meat; and yet another that they could not
live there without liquor. 'How about all this?' she asked me. I said:
'Will you not trust me? I shall not lie to you. I swear that I shall
not touch any of those things. If there were any such danger, would
Joshiji let me go?' 'I ca n trust you', she said. 'But how can I trust
you in a distant land? I am dazed and know not what to do. I will
ask Becharji Swami.' Becharji Swami was originally a Modh Bania, but
had now become a Jain monk. He too was a family adviser like Joshiji.
He came to my help, and said: "I shall get the boy solemnly to take
the three vows, and then he can be allowed to go.' He administered
the oath and I vowed not to touch wine, woman and meat. This done,
my mother gave her permission.
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