To set up a household was no new experience for me. But the establishment in Natal was different from the ones that I had had in Bombay and London. This time part of the expense was solely for the sake of prestige. I thought it necessary to have a household in keeping with my position as an Indian barrister in Natal and as a representative. So I had a nice little house in a prominent locality. It was also suitably furnished. Food was simple, but as I used to invite English friends and Indian co-workers, the housekeeping bills were always fairly high.
A good servant is essential in every household. But I have never
known how to keep anyone as a servant.
I had a friend as companion and help, and a cook who had become a
member of the family. I also had office clerks boarding and lodging
I think I had a fair amount of success in this experiment, but it
was not without its modicum of the bitter experiences of life.
The companion was very clever and, I thought, faithful to me. But in
this I was deceived. He became jealous of an office clerk who was
staying with me, and wove such a tangled web that I suspected the
clerk. This clerical friend had a temper of his own. Immediately he
saw that he had been the object of my suspicion, he left both the
house and the office. I was pained. I felt that perhaps I had been
unjust to him, and my conscience always stung me.
In the meanwhile, the cook needed a few days' leave, or for some
other cause was away. It was necessary to procure another during his
absence. Of this new man I learnt later that he was a perfect scamp.
But for me he proved a godsend. Within two or three days of his
arrival, he discovered certain irregularities that were going on
under my roof without my knowledge, and he made up his mind to warn
me. I had the reputation of being a credulous but straight man. The
discovery was to him, therefore, all the more shocking. Every day at
one o'clock I used to go home from office for lunch. At about twelve
o'clock one day the cook came panting to the office, and said,
'Please come home at once. There is a surprise for you.'
is this?' I asked. 'You must tell me what it is. How can I leave the
office at this hour to go and see it?'
'You will regret it, if you don't come. That is all I can say.'
I felt an appeal in his persistence. I went home accompanied by a
clerk and the cook who walked ahead of us. He took me straight to
the upper floor, pointed at my companion's room, and said, 'Open
this door and see for yourself.'
I saw it all. I knocked at the door. No reply! I knocked heavily so
as to make the very walls shake. The door was opened. I saw a
prostitute inside. I asked her to leave the house, never to return.
To the companion I said, 'From this moment I cease to have anything
to do with you. I have been thoroughly deceived and have made a fool
of myself. That is how you have requited my trust in you?'
Instead of coming to his senses, he threatened to expose me.
'I have nothing to conceal,' said I, 'Expose whatever I may have
done. But you must leave me this moment.'
This made him worse. There was no help for it. So I said to the
clerk standing downstairs: 'Please go and inform the police
superintendent, with my compliments, that a person living with me
has misbehaved himself. I do not want to keep him in my house, but
he refuses to leave. I shall be much obliged if police help can be
This showed him that I was in earnest. His guilt unnerved him. He
apologized to me, entreated me not to inform the police, and agreed
to leave the house immediately, which he did.
The incident came as a timely warning in my life. Only now could I
see clearly how thoroughly I had been beguiled by this evil genius.
In harbouring him I had chosen a bad means for a good end. I had
expected to 'gather figs of thistles'. I had known that the companion
was a bad character, and yet I believed in his faithfulness to me.
In the attempt to reform him I was near ruining myself. I had
disregarded the warning of kind friends. Infatuation had completely
But for the new cook I should never have discovered the truth and
being under the influence of the companion, I should probably have
been unable to lead the life of detachment that I then began. I
should always have been wasting time on him. He had the power to
keep me in the dark and to mislead me.
But God came to the rescue as before. My intentions were pure, and
so I was saved in spite of my mistakes, and this early experience
thoroughly forewarned me for the future.
The cook had been almost a messenger sent from Heaven. He did not
know cooking, and as a cook he could not have remained at my place.
But no one else could have opened my eyes. This was not the first
time, as I subsequently learnt, that the woman had been brought into
my house. She had come often before, but no one had the courage of
this cook. For everyone knew how blindly I trusted the companion.
The cook had, as it were, been sent to me just to do this service,
for he begged leave of me that very moment.
'I cannot stay in your house,' he said. 'You are so easily misled.
This is no place for me.'
I let him go.
I soon discovered that the man who had poisoned my ears against the
clerk was no other than this companion. I tried very hard to make
amends to the clerk for the injustice I had done him. It has,
however, been my eternal regret that I could never satisfy him
fully. Howsoever you may repair it, a rift is a rift.